“I’m really not an idiot,” I unconvincingly try to explain, as I continue to carelessly spill coffee all over myself.
Ms Evilyne just laughs. I’m worried I am showing Her up, but She smiles and says “It’s funny”. Phew.
Truth is, I’m genuinely giddy. It had been such a great day. Even better than I imagined it would be – it was getting to my head a bit. Or possibly a mild twinkle of endorphins running around.
So, let’s rewind. Where am I? What am I doing here? How did I get here?
For some personal reasons, I’m a little behind on my blogs at the minute.
So, here’s a little overview of a fun packed weekend I had last week, which provided a welcome distraction…
It was just one of those weekends that slotted together. Some stuff I/we wanted to do all happening in the same weekend in a similar-ish area, so made things more cost-effective tying them all together.
I don’t know if anyone else has any form of routine in preparing for a session.
Now. I’m writing this two-fold, one to share what I do : and two, possibly it may help others. Others either being a Mistress I’m going to see or film with, or other subs to help them get more out of things.
I love it when a plan comes together…
There were a few things we’d wanted to do… why not do them all in the same long weekend.
So, we did – and a weekend of vanilla fun and general kink unfolded beautifully.
It’s now been over a year since I started filming (blog on that here) and, one of the things I found was how much some doors and opportunities opened up for me as I proved to be reliable.
So, after filming with Merciless Dominas last July, I was invited to the Berlin shoot at the Torture Farm in October 2016. Unfortunately, prior commitments stopped me taking that – however, in the hope an opportunity would come back up, I took the chance in June 2017 – and things probably turned out a lot better this way.
I tend not to do week-in-the-life of kinda posts. I mean, there’s often things happen or things on my mind most weeks. But still.
Anyway, the past week or so has been really positive in many aspects of my life.
“I love the pathetic noises you make as you squirm”
Has it been an hour? Or ten minutes? Or ninety minutes? More?
I have no idea.
It is dark, I’m encased in the vac bed – and whilst this feels quite tight, every now and then I feel Ms Evilyne pumping more air in as it wraps into *every* crack and crevasse.
All I can see is darkness and the vivid fantasies in my head. Every one I feel guilty about, every one a distraction.
I’d been curious about attending a Femdom event for quite a while.
There’s often been reasons I’ve not – whether it’s been uncertainty of if it’s for me, or general nerves. Too much expectancy and then disappointment or even just a vision that there was a risk of too many single subs all desperate for play and in that kind of set up I get a bit intimidated and step back which has me have no chance.
But some of this is all pre-conceptions and worry and the likes- but the whole concept of Bitches Unleashed was too good to miss.
It’s been a year today since I first filmed a clip as a filming slave.
I have been sitting on a draft about filming, in general for many months – and now seems a good time to do a final version of it 🙂