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Diary / Journey
Someone asked me on Curious Cat “What does ownership mean to you?”
I replied, of course, that this wasn’t something I could sum up in a couple of lines.
I have been working on drafts regarding ownership for a while. Previously, my own views – and then later – that of course I am now under consideration from Miss Suzanna.
So. Enjoy the ride…
OWNERSHIP V COLLARING
A lot of people call things different things, just to make things less straight forward.
In vanilla relationships you might meet somebody, date, then get engaged, then get married.
Do I deserve this?
I am going to cut straight to the chase, I struggle, at times, with ‘Impostor Syndrome’.
In saying that – sometimes when I’m struggling I do acknowledge this is the problem, that it is a known thing. But, that doesn’t, always, help.
“You actually asked for this?”
“Yes, Mistress”
“Meet Amelia… you may give her a kiss”
So, I did – a little kiss planted down the length of the leather.
After a really good weekend at the Hidden Torturer Farm last year, it was certainly a no-brainer to repeat the opportunity. (Read here for last years adventures).
Like previously, I was going with a view to be of assistance to Miss Courtney. However, a twist in the plot was that Miss Suzanna, whom I also have an amazing relationship with, was attending.
Am I even kinky?
I asked myself that today. Well. Today as of when I’m writing this blog, so in reality probably a different day.
And, I know others have had similar thought processes.
It is an extension, of course, on a previous thought of “Am I really a sub?”
So, well.
I’m up for an award at the UKAP Awards
I’m in the “Best Website” category.
I feel a little bit of a fish out of water.
The very first time I filmed with House of Sinn was before I even started this blog/diary.
The second time was something I didn’t write about, because I don’t diary everything. To go 3 times without writing about them, especially on such a big experience, well, that’d be a travesty.
I think this sets a current record – W/we had talked about filming again since W/we first met… 14 months previously.
Of course, W/we have met since then – but filming is always a different context.
In today’s filming – I am with Miss Suzanna Maxwell and Purple Tog is also assisting.
I kinda love it when things come together so nicely.
I’d very much been interested in doing something with Sir Claire Black since, well, since She was recommended to me 10 months ago.
It’s fitting that I re-wrote my ‘2017 in review’ because I didn’t like the initial tone, so I’ve also re-written my ‘aims for 2018’ post, likewise.
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My first 2017 retrospective I wrote, I wasn’t very happy with.
While it did focus on some highs – and lows – of this year : there’s things it didn’t quite capture.
This HAS been a very good year for me – and that goes beyond dispute.
It has also had lots of challenges, frustrations and lows.
So. I’m instead going to write a lessons of 2017 – for myself to learn from and, possibly there’s something in there would benefit others.