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“I want to be like you” – the strangers trying to coattail

Every now and then I get a message from another guy.

The general vibe is usually

“You get to do cool things and meet nice Women, I would also like that”

Sometimes I even get “maybe you could take me with you.”

No stranger. I don’t know you from shit, taking you with me would be a form of vouching and I can’t vouch for you because I don’t know you and any bad behaviour will reflect on me.

Diary – BTS Filming: with Penny Banks, Mxtress Valleycat and Miss Abigail

This is a slightly rare blog post in the sense that… I don’t actually appear very much.

I spent most of the week behind a camera, often trying to keep a straight camera and straight face for a few days that were a lot of fun.

Ownership within D/s

Someone asked me on Curious Cat “What does ownership mean to you?”

I replied, of course, that this wasn’t something I could sum up in a couple of lines.

I have been working on drafts regarding ownership for a while. Previously, my own views – and then later – that of course I am now under consideration from Miss Suzanna.

So. Enjoy the ride…

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Do I Deserve This?

Do I deserve this?

I am going to cut straight to the chase, I struggle, at times, with ‘Impostor Syndrome’.

In saying that – sometimes when I’m struggling I do acknowledge this is the problem, that it is a known thing. But, that doesn’t, always, help.

Story : Meet Amelia

“You actually asked for this?”
“Yes, Mistress”
“Meet Amelia… you may give her a kiss”

So, I did – a little kiss planted down the length of the leather.

Diary: Return to the Berlin Farm

After a really good weekend at the Hidden Torturer Farm last year, it was certainly a no-brainer to repeat the opportunity. (Read here for last years adventures).

Like previously, I was going with a view to be of assistance to Miss Courtney. However, a twist in the plot was that Miss Suzanna, whom I also have an amazing relationship with, was attending.

Am I even kinky?

Am I even kinky?

I asked myself that today. Well. Today as of when I’m writing this blog, so in reality probably a different day.

And, I know others have had similar thought processes.

It is an extension, of course, on a previous thought of “Am I really a sub?”

So, I’m umm… up for an award. Vote for me?

So, well.

I’m up for an award at the UKAP Awards

I’m in the “Best Website” category.

I feel a little bit of a fish out of water.

Diary : Filming with House of Sinn

The very first time I filmed with House of Sinn was before I even started this blog/diary.

The second time was something I didn’t write about, because I don’t diary everything.  To go 3 times without writing about them, especially on such a big experience, well, that’d be a travesty.

Diary : Clip 100 – Filming with Miss Suzanna

I think this sets a current record – W/we had talked about filming again since W/we first met… 14 months previously.

Of course, W/we have met since then – but filming is always a different context.

In today’s filming – I am with Miss Suzanna Maxwell and Purple Tog is also assisting.

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