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Sometimes Blog Writing Slows Down

Last week I released my first blog of 2024.
In my peak I think I was managing 30-40 per year, so basically fortnightly.

So this asks two questions
What on Earth have I been up to the past 6 months – which I’ll come onto in a moment
Why is my frequency dried right up.

So here goes.

There’s three main reasons why the blog has slowed right down


Firstly is other stuff has taken priority.
Within kink that might well be my own store and the admin I do for others. But also outside of kink this involves some stuff I’m involved with in music, while also I’ve been sorting out moving house and selling an old flat.
So it’s important not to get in the way of things that make me money, things that can lose me money, other priorities and ways to relax and unwind.  I am really bad at taking time to relax and unwind. read more

2023 in Review

I think to sum up 2023 is that… I am exhausted.

There’s certainly been a lot of good times, and I’ll come on to some of them and won’t play things down. But, I’ve been battling on a few fronts for so long and being in a position where I’ve not wanted to “miss out” but still feel I’ve not done nearly what I’d like to do.

Usually when I do end of year posts I do a highs/lows and looking forward to the following year.

However, it’s difficult to specifically pin point ‘lows’ so, I guess I’ll just reflect. read more

Diary : Fetish Awards 2023

It’s been a bit of a while since I did a diary style post and despite regularly attending award events, I’ve never really blogged about them. I have just attended the UK Fetish Awards.

So, here is a two for one.

The very first awards I went to was the UKAP Awards back in 2018, before UKAP became SNAP.

I didn’t know how things would go but it was when I was blogging *a lot* and someone suggested putting it forward to some of the awards people. So I did, and got shortlisted.

And while I didn’t win, or make the final board, it was a fun night out.

Life Updates – Lack of Blogs

Not to say I’ve been slow in updating my blog recently. But, I’ve been slow at updating my blog recently.

In 2023 so far there have been 5 published blogs, this makes number 6, so around one a month. A far cry from when I was doing circa 40 a year.

So what changed, and what has been happening?

Better Pissed On than Pissed Off – Experience in Water Sports

I can’t remember, specifically, when I first fantasised about watersports.

I guess I was late teens.

I know it was something I raised with my first wife but it wasn’t something which interested her or subsequent partners. Sometimes, for different reasons.

For example: I have done some play with Valleycat, but, they have a nervous bladder so most things are not going to work.

2013, aged 32, I joined my local kink community. Started attending munches and events. I did, very quickly get into situations where I was doing a lot of play with folk and had made a lot of friends.

Despite this, even 2 years later I found it difficult asking about specific things, including piss play, when not knowing if folk were into it or not.

Worst Orgasms – My Top 5 Least Enjoyable Orgasms

Everyone loves orgasms, right?  I know I really do enjoy a lovely explosive cum shot.

But, over the years – especially in filming – I seem to have found myself in a few situation that weren’t really the pleasantry they should be.

While there have certainly been more than 5, here are 5 key moments in my unenjoyable orgasms

Diary : January Filming – feat Goddess Cleo, Miss Jessica Hyde, Foxtress and Mx Valleycat

It’s been a lot longer than planned since I last did a diary post!  So many adventures which haven’t fully gone documented, which feels a shame.

So, here are two for the price of one. January 2023 I managed two long, full, film days.

One of the covid-casualties was a gig I had been going to go to with Mx Valleycat. Heilung. I think it was rescheduled three times in the end, and then a late venue shift!

2022 – in Video and Film

At it’s simplest in numbers.
In 2022 I did 16 film days, doing a total of 90 clips with 20 different people.
Landmarks among the way included filming the 400th clip I’d been in.

It’s been a ride, and so a little look back at each month.

2022 in Review

When 2022 began we were still coming off the tails of covid a lot.
There was still hope for less disruption and more optimism than in 2021, that seems to have come true.

While there certainly have been cancellations and frustrations, none of it has been through covid.  I’ve been back able to film most months, we’ve brought the munch back, and I’ve been able to attend a couple of events.
I also started a new kink based volunteer role, like I don’t do enough – ha!

So, as typical, a look over the highs and lows of my year, and a look forward to 2023.

Diary : Messtival and Filming with Roxy-Fox and Araneae

It’s been a while since I did a diary post (or blog in general, sorry!) but this is one with so much adventure it feels like it shouldn’t be left out.

There is a lot of back story, so this might take some pulling together.

In 2019 there was an event called Messtival organised by Penny Banks.
Messtival was a film festival, and awards event, for splosh films.

Diary : Meeting Miss Cate McQueen

You know when you’re at a club or party and someone catches your eye?   You think, “Wow, they look amazing”, but then for any one of a million reasons you end up leaving having not said anything?

Well. That happens to me all the time.

But sometimes you end up following each other on Twitter and throw your hat in the ring when you see they’re looking at getting into filming and… boom… first film day of 2022.

2021 in Review : A Glimpse of Normal Service

Coming into 2021 there were different waves of optimism.  I think we all kinda hoped covid would be “over” by now, but instead we’re in this weird hazy “learn to live with covid” phase which involves frequent testing, careful planning and vaccinations.

Whether of course you care about testing, planning or being vaccinated might differ – but you’re certainly in a world that does.

I didn’t really set targets for 2021 – and, if I’m honest, I was worried more of the year would be written off than actually was.

Certainly, planning for 2022 might be a touch more optimistic.

Although, new challenges await.

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