I don’t diary every filming day or private session (not that I’ve had a private session in a while… another story for another day) but I almost started to regret that with the pandemic and shut down.
So, the filming day I had with Georgie Girl back on March 16th didn’t get a diary post (sorry!) and it’s been 5 whole months without any filming.
Or seeing anyone.
Or leaving my hometown.
I’d put my own plans to return to filming back more than once. Either to comply with guidance or for my own concerns/safety/
I always liked the idea of doing retrospective diaries – particularly when there’d been sessions, filming or events I’d not documented before.
Today, I’m going to take you back to 2001. To a period of my life. How I got into kink.
I often joke that I “took a break” and then came back, the break lasting 15 years.
But, what happened before this ‘break’?
I’ve found over the last 12 months or so a growing number of people who’ve expressed interest in filming – but trying to sort it out is somewhat trickier than it should seem.
I’ve been plotting a few regular trips to London this year, for a mixture of music and fetish events.
So, the opportunity to go to a concert I’d wanted to see and try to arrange some filming around it seemed a good idea.
In reality, ended up with one day filming out of 3 possible days – but it was certainly a quality over quantity situation when that one day was with AMY WYNTERS.
I feel I’ve been a bit lax in doing the diary posts for some of the filming days and so wanted to get back on it.
I think part the problem was I was doing a lot of filming very bundled together in a short space of time. I’m not sure.
So. 2019 finished on a high with a filming day with Devon Breeze and Princess Organa to the extent that I walked out thinking “yeah, I can be done for the year – I’m happy with that”
It was almost 2 months later before my next filming day – which was filming with Miss Kendal for Fetish SINema.
Re-reading my 2018 review I couldn’t help but get a sense of de ja vous.
Initially, I’d tried and failed to write a 2019 write-up I was happy with.
That, as I’m sure most people will know, I find it important to be open, honest and authentic.
Presenting “everything is wonderful” ignores some of the bad times and struggles and sometimes glosses over emotions.
I often thought I was cursed with Mixed Wrestling.
It’d been something I’d be curious to be involved in; every time I tried to sort something, something would happen.
Injuries, last minute problems, someone else just pipping me on applying on shoots or whatever.
I have been incredibly and wonderfully busy recently – the downside of this is that it’s been really difficult to individually blog all of the experiences.
Though, I don’t like to blog *everything* for assorted reasons.
I’ve not really touched on it in my blog, but I am no longer in service to Miss Suzanna.
All anyone needs to know is that I’m no longer in service to her and that we’d both like to remain friends.
So, it’s here. My own Femdom clipstore.
Who’d have thought it?
When I first started filming 3 years ago it was a little bit “Wouldn’t this be fun to do sometime”. Things have come a little way since then.
Of course the idea of my own store drifted in and out, but it wasn’t one I really felt I’d ever do.
“What you going to write? That we drank tea and talked?”
“Maybe I will…”
It’s funny, really. And an important reminder of the importance of doing things without set expectations and to enjoy taking things as they come.
I’m not going to lie, I’ve found things fairly tough for a while now.
It’s felt a bit that just as one thing was going right or getting sorted another thing was going wrong and it’s felt like constant firefighting for, well, pretty much 18 months or so.
This has led to some really, really, low points – and I’m grateful to those who tried to support me at the time.
It wasn’t an intention to go for a landmark number of clips; but, perhaps that in itself was why doing my 200th clip was so valuable.
I’d talked on and off about doing some filming with Nina Hiss – and good fortune had meant that she was available at a time I was in London anyway for a concert.