eyemblacksheep

Journey and Opinions of a BDSM Kinkster

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Do I Deserve This?

Do I deserve this?

I am going to cut straight to the chase, I struggle, at times, with ‘Impostor Syndrome’.

In saying that – sometimes when I’m struggling I do acknowledge this is the problem, that it is a known thing. But, that doesn’t, always, help.

Story : Meet Amelia

“You actually asked for this?”
“Yes, Mistress”
“Meet Amelia… you may give her a kiss”

So, I did – a little kiss planted down the length of the leather.

Diary: Return to the Berlin Farm

After a really good weekend at the Hidden Torturer Farm last year, it was certainly a no-brainer to repeat the opportunity. (Read here for last years adventures).

Like previously, I was going with a view to be of assistance to Miss Courtney. However, a twist in the plot was that Miss Suzanna, whom I also have an amazing relationship with, was attending.

Fantasy v Reality : Mistakes Many Make

There’s been a lot on my mind lately regarding fantasy vs reality.

While, perhaps, a deeper blog on my thought process could be one “for the future” – this blog here is more designed at some of the many pitfalls that some seem to confuse.

The list is non-exhaustive.

Jealousy in Kink

Something that has been a struggle for me at times has been jealousy.

I want to talk about some of my struggles and spirals.

Some of this I drafted when feeling quite low, but a lot was written or reviewed when I was in a good place.
I think that’s also something extremely important, to be able to review how you felt – to be able to manage things in the future.

I would imagine that most/many subs have similar feelings.
It may even be that Dominants have similar, I don’t know. They probably do.

Am I even kinky?

Am I even kinky?

I asked myself that today. Well. Today as of when I’m writing this blog, so in reality probably a different day.

And, I know others have had similar thought processes.

It is an extension, of course, on a previous thought of “Am I really a sub?”

Are Pro-Domme sessions too cheap?

It’s been a bit of a hot topic – and it does tie in a little bit with stuff I’ve said in the past.

Are Pro-Domme sessions actually TOO CHEAP?

So, I’m umm… up for an award. Vote for me?

So, well.

I’m up for an award at the UKAP Awards

I’m in the “Best Website” category.

I feel a little bit of a fish out of water.

Diary : Filming with House of Sinn

The very first time I filmed with House of Sinn was before I even started this blog/diary.

The second time was something I didn’t write about, because I don’t diary everything.  To go 3 times without writing about them, especially on such a big experience, well, that’d be a travesty.

Diary : Clip 100 – Filming with Miss Suzanna

I think this sets a current record – W/we had talked about filming again since W/we first met… 14 months previously.

Of course, W/we have met since then – but filming is always a different context.

In today’s filming – I am with Miss Suzanna Maxwell and Purple Tog is also assisting.

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