It wasn’t an intention to go for a landmark number of clips; but, perhaps that in itself was why doing my 200th clip was so valuable.
I’d talked on and off about doing some filming with Nina Hiss – and good fortune had meant that she was available at a time I was in London anyway for a concert.
Is submission truly selfless?
Something that I had struggled with in the past was around whether or not my actions were “selfless”.
Part of this stemmed from a moment a while ago when two Ladies were discussing guys in general and as I pottered around tidying up, one said “They’re not selfless, not like this one”.
What should have been a compliment, actually led me to have a lot of thinking. I didn’t see myself as being selfless. I want to be useful so that people will keep me around.
How to get 82.5% Commission from Clips4Sale.
I’m going to make a drastic change from my usual writing and produce an actual guide… this one being to making more money.
There’s a lot going on in the world of clips at the moment.
I know that many people and producers rely on clip income – either as a main or passive source of income.
So.
You’re scrolling through Twitter or Fetlife or wherever and see photos or mention of someone that makes you go “ooh”.
Perhaps this could be a picture or clip of someone you’ve found attractive or maybe something they’ve said that reasons with your mind.
There’s a little part of your brain spikes up and goes “I simply have to meet this person”.
Of course in a lot of cases a lot of initial horniness takes over – and is where we get a lot of the stupid from – but again to cut this quicker you’re a rational person and can manage to type with hands above the keyboard and begin to type an application to serve or book a session.
Which, um, is still some of the horniness taking over.
In some of these steps that follow are things to consider to help increase the chances of the person being right for you on whatever basis.
The purpose of this blog serves for an almost pre-contact vetting. I may continue this series for almost ongoing vetting.
Do I deserve this?
I am going to cut straight to the chase, I struggle, at times, with ‘Impostor Syndrome’.
In saying that – sometimes when I’m struggling I do acknowledge this is the problem, that it is a known thing. But, that doesn’t, always, help.
After a really good weekend at the Hidden Torturer Farm last year, it was certainly a no-brainer to repeat the opportunity. (Read here for last years adventures).
Like previously, I was going with a view to be of assistance to Miss Courtney. However, a twist in the plot was that Miss Suzanna, whom I also have an amazing relationship with, was attending.
There’s been a lot on my mind lately regarding fantasy vs reality.
While, perhaps, a deeper blog on my thought process could be one “for the future” – this blog here is more designed at some of the many pitfalls that some seem to confuse.
The list is non-exhaustive.
Something that has been a struggle for me at times has been jealousy.
I want to talk about some of my struggles and spirals.
Some of this I drafted when feeling quite low, but a lot was written or reviewed when I was in a good place.
I think that’s also something extremely important, to be able to review how you felt – to be able to manage things in the future.
I would imagine that most/many subs have similar feelings.
It may even be that Dominants have similar, I don’t know. They probably do.
It’s been a bit of a hot topic – and it does tie in a little bit with stuff I’ve said in the past.
Are Pro-Domme sessions actually TOO CHEAP?
The very first time I filmed with House of Sinn was before I even started this blog/diary.
The second time was something I didn’t write about, because I don’t diary everything. To go 3 times without writing about them, especially on such a big experience, well, that’d be a travesty.
I think this sets a current record – W/we had talked about filming again since W/we first met… 14 months previously.
Of course, W/we have met since then – but filming is always a different context.
In today’s filming – I am with Miss Suzanna Maxwell and Purple Tog is also assisting.
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