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Diary : Filming with Ms Evilyne

“I’m really not an idiot,” I unconvincingly try to explain, as I continue to carelessly spill coffee all over myself.
Ms Evilyne just laughs. I’m worried I am showing Her up, but She smiles and says “It’s funny”. Phew.

Truth is, I’m genuinely giddy. It had been such a great day. Even better than I imagined it would be – it was getting to my head a bit. Or possibly a mild twinkle of endorphins running around.

So, let’s rewind. Where am I? What am I doing here? How did I get here?

Diary : A Weekend in the West

For some personal reasons, I’m a little behind on my blogs at the minute.

So, here’s a little overview of a fun packed weekend I had last week, which provided a welcome distraction…

It was just one of those weekends that slotted together. Some stuff I/we wanted to do all happening in the same weekend in a similar-ish area, so made things more cost-effective tying them all together.

Mentally preparing for Mistress

I don’t know if anyone else has any form of routine in preparing for a session.

Now. I’m writing this two-fold, one to share what I do : and two, possibly it may help others. Others either being a Mistress I’m going to see or film with, or other subs to help them get more out of things.

Diary : Cardiff, Radio and some good old Corporal Punishment

I love it when a plan comes together…

There were a few things we’d wanted to do… why not do them all in the same long weekend.

So, we did – and a weekend of vanilla fun and general kink unfolded beautifully.

Diary : A Meeting after too long…

6 months in the making.
When I first met Miss Suzanna Maxwell, She captivated me in a way so few do.
What I initially treat as a “good opportunity” or “nice afternoon out” became a whole lot more as I left longing to give Her more.

Diary : Berlin Filming for Merciless Dominas and Miss Courtney

It’s now been over a year since I started filming (blog on that here) and, one of the things I found was how much some doors and opportunities opened up for me as I proved to be reliable.

So, after filming with Merciless Dominas last July, I was invited to the Berlin shoot at the Torture Farm in October 2016. Unfortunately, prior commitments stopped me taking that – however, in the hope an opportunity would come back up, I took the chance in June 2017 – and things probably turned out a lot better this way.

Diary : This Past Week….

I tend not to do week-in-the-life of kinda posts.  I mean, there’s often things happen or things on my mind most weeks.  But still.

Anyway, the past week or so has been really positive in many aspects of my life.

Diary : On the Edge

“I love the pathetic noises you make as you squirm”

Has it been an hour? Or ten minutes? Or ninety minutes? More?

I have no idea.

It is dark, I’m encased in the vac bed – and whilst this feels quite tight, every now and then I feel Ms Evilyne pumping more air in as it wraps into *every* crack and crevasse.

All I can see is darkness and the vivid fantasies in my head. Every one I feel guilty about, every one a distraction.

Diary : Bitches Unleashed Trip

I’d been curious about attending a Femdom event for quite a while.

There’s often been reasons I’ve not – whether it’s been uncertainty of if it’s for me, or general nerves. Too much expectancy and then disappointment or even just a vision that there was a risk of too many single subs all desperate for play and in that kind of set up I get a bit intimidated and step back which has me have no chance.

But some of this is all pre-conceptions and worry and the likes- but the whole concept of Bitches Unleashed was too good to miss.

A Year of Filming

It’s been a year today since I first filmed a clip as a filming slave.

I have been sitting on a draft about filming, in general for many months – and now seems a good time to do a final version of it 🙂

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