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Do I Deserve This?

Do I deserve this?

I am going to cut straight to the chase, I struggle, at times, with ‘Impostor Syndrome’.

In saying that – sometimes when I’m struggling I do acknowledge this is the problem, that it is a known thing. But, that doesn’t, always, help.

Story : Meet Amelia

“You actually asked for this?”
“Yes, Mistress”
“Meet Amelia… you may give her a kiss”

So, I did – a little kiss planted down the length of the leather.

Diary: Return to the Berlin Farm

After a really good weekend at the Hidden Torturer Farm last year, it was certainly a no-brainer to repeat the opportunity. (Read here for last years adventures).

Like previously, I was going with a view to be of assistance to Miss Courtney. However, a twist in the plot was that Miss Suzanna, whom I also have an amazing relationship with, was attending.

Am I even kinky?

Am I even kinky?

I asked myself that today. Well. Today as of when I’m writing this blog, so in reality probably a different day.

And, I know others have had similar thought processes.

It is an extension, of course, on a previous thought of “Am I really a sub?”

So, I’m umm… up for an award. Vote for me?

So, well.

I’m up for an award at the UKAP Awards

I’m in the “Best Website” category.

I feel a little bit of a fish out of water.

Diary : Filming with House of Sinn

The very first time I filmed with House of Sinn was before I even started this blog/diary.

The second time was something I didn’t write about, because I don’t diary everything.  To go 3 times without writing about them, especially on such a big experience, well, that’d be a travesty.

Diary : Clip 100 – Filming with Miss Suzanna

I think this sets a current record – W/we had talked about filming again since W/we first met… 14 months previously.

Of course, W/we have met since then – but filming is always a different context.

In today’s filming – I am with Miss Suzanna Maxwell and Purple Tog is also assisting.

Diary : Filming with Sir Claire Black

I kinda love it when things come together so nicely.
I’d very much been interested in doing something with Sir Claire Black since, well, since She was recommended to me 10 months ago.

A more personal take on getting out what you put in

Having scrapped my planned blog for this week (honestly, it needed nuking – my good points in there will be mopped up on a future blog.) I had an inspiration for some writing earlier – and this is probably going to be one of the more personal blogs I’ve written in a while.
It’s not quite as personal as I first thought but, certainly, a slice of my thoughts right now.
To work properly, this is going to be one take – so apologies if there’s a few more errors than normal.
I don’t confess this often, but it should be no secret.
I really love the kink/fetish/BDSM scene.

2018 Aims (not a bucket list)

It’s fitting that I re-wrote my ‘2017 in review’ because I didn’t like the initial tone, so I’ve also re-written my ‘aims for 2018’ post, likewise.

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